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Though Nico doesn't like admitting it aloud -- she'd rather make claims of a slew of nameless, mysterious exes who had dated her in some undisclosed point in the past -- Akiha is her first. First everything, really. First hand-hold, first kiss, first hands under shirt, first -- everything. Every step they take into their relationship is brand new to her. And along the way, Nico's learned a lot if things about herself she doesn't think she would've found out otherwise.

Like just how much she likes having control over Akiha.

It kind of crept up on her; Akiha is so stoic and stuffy so much of the time, it was only natural for Nico to try and poke holes in her composure. It was like a game, and the prize was the cute flustered faces Akiha would make.

But over time, bit by bit, she came to realize the delight she takes in it extends much further and deeper than simple lighthearted teasing. She wanted more. To strip Akiha of her armor completely, and take over her. Ever since the thought occurred to her, she couldn't get it off her mind.

It's probably a little weird.

Still, bringing it up, Nico tried to sound as nonchalant as possible, like it's no big deal at all, like she's not scared of being pegged as some creepy pervert. By some manner of miracle, it worked, and Akiha agreed to try it once.

"Okay, cool," Nico had said, swallowing subtly to try and force her heart back down her throat.

That was last week. They said they'll do it next time they're alone. And they are alone, right now, in Akiha's bedroom that Nico always secretly found far bigger than should ever be necessary. Yet somehow it feels cramped now, like there's not enough air to breathe. They're both thinking about it, she's sure -- at the very least, she knows she's thinking about it. Yet they've barely even kissed today, only awkwardly exchanged various happenings from the past week, the distance between them as stiff as an actual, tangible wall.

Asking about it was one thing, but how the heck does she go about initiating something like this?!

The room falls into a tense silence, and Nico decides this is her chance. She clears her throat. "So, uh... do you want to do it? Like we talked about?" Her eyes can't stay on Akiha beyond the first three words, and her face grows a very telling, splotchy pink. Uuugh, this is off to a terrible start already...

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Akiha would be lying if she said she didn't enjoy Nico's teasing. It was a lie she tells very, very often, usually with a huff, but it's still a lie. Nico is someone she feels next to no pressure around, in contrast to literally everyone else in her entire life. Even around the people she's closest to - her maids, her brother - she feels a need to play a part. Kohaku and Hisui are technically in her employ. She wants to be a good sister. She needs to command respect from her maids, and she needs to keep her brother's nose clean, to borrow a phrase.

Nico is just Nico. Their relationship was born from arguments, sniping, and banter. Trying to play some sort of part would make things more awkward, not less. Nico would probably laugh in her face if she tried to do the 'proper young woman' act, and she'd probably bristle if she tried to act like her mother.

Akiha, as much as she likes her control, wouldn't have it any other way. Nico isn't someone she owes anything to. Nico is just, well, Nico.

Right now, Nico's staring at her with a weird look on her face, awkwardly writhing around on the sheets that Hisui just cleaned. Akiha gives her a look as she clears her throat, and then narrows her eyes when she finally speaks, frowning. To be honest, she had almost forgotten about that. It's an awkward thing to think about. They aren't a very... sexual couple. Rather, they had sex, but they didn't delve too deep into what Akiha generally thought of as frivolities. Sex was sex, complete in itself. Trying to add toys or dynamics or whatever else to that just seemed like it would sour it, in her mind. Not that she has any experience beyond Nico to draw from.

But Nico had asked, and Akiha had given her permission. No matter how much she tells herself it wasn't needed, she can't help but be curious. Control was something Akiha sought almost every second of every day. She controlled the house, she controlled the business as best she could even without any official power, she controlled herself...

But Nico has always been her escape from that, someone she could just let go with, at least a bit. Maybe giving up more would be nice, so long as Nico didn't let it get to her head, and she could do it on her terms. The only problem?

Clearly, Nico has no idea how to go about this.

"Shouldn't you build up to it first? We aren't men, we don't just hunt down the nearest hole," Akiha sighs, balling her hand up into a fist and resting her chin against it as she lounges on her side. "I don't know much about cheap smut - thankfully - but shouldn't something like this be..." She trails off, searching for the right word. "... Dark. Enticing. Shouldn't it? Seduce me."

"I-I know that! I just thought it'd be inappropriate to spring it up on you!" Nico's flush deepens. Though she should be glad Akiha hasn't changed her mind, this response is doing nothing to build up her confidence. She pushes herself up into a sitting position, hands balled up at her sides, and stares down at Akiha with great intensity. Her lower lip trembles slightly in concentration. Dark. Enticing. She can totally do this. It was her idea in the first place, right? So take a deep breath and just...

"Urghh, I can't do it after you told me to seduce you!"

And she plants her face between her hands.

"Don't offer to do something you don't have the guts for," Akiha chastises as Nico half-covers her face, sitting up and brushing her long skirt out, legs now hanging over the side of the bed. "Look, if you're having trouble working up the nerve," Akiha starts, voice surprisingly gentle... until she pauses mid-sentence, for something that was your idea, by the way," that was a definite snipe, all gentleness gone, "then we can build up to it. Slowly. Start by getting a little more demanding in bed and go from there."

"Unless you'd rather I try taking the reigns," Akiha offers, very smug. She had to admit, that was a thought of hers too. It'd get them past all this preamble, at least.

From the affronted look on Nico's face, you'd think Akiha had insulted her mother. "No! Absolutely not! Forget it!" she squawks, settling a bit once she believes her answer's been made clear. There's no way she'd just hand the reigns over to Akiha. It's way too shameful, all the more so when she was the one to suggest it!

She sighs, shoulders slouching. "You're so annoying sometimes, you know that? Aren't you feeling even a little bit nervous?"

"Maybe I'd be nervous if I thought it might actually happen tonight," Akiha shoots back, harsher than she really meant to be, enough to make her wince at the sound of her own voice.

"... I'm sorry," she mumbles awkwardly, putting her fist to her chin again, breaking eye contact with Nico to stare at the sheets directly to the right of her. "I... am, a little. Nervous, that is. This would be easier if we both just relaxed, but that's harder than it sounds."

Nico's shoulders tense at her tone, though they relax the next moment. Akiha did apologize right away, and Nico was never fragile enough to take that sort of thing to heart anyway. Normally she'd just let it go, but...

Well, Akiha was being pretty exasperating before. She might as well milk this one for all it's worth, set things even.

Nico turns her head away, wrapping her arms around herself as she sways like a leaf in the wind. Her voice is nasal and choked, punctuated by a delicate sniffle.

"... even so, Akiha didn't have to be so mean about it..."

Akiha's first reaction is to roll her eyes. Maybe if had just been one or two of those things, she'd have bought it, but she knows Nico well enough to realize when she's being overdramatic for the sake of it.

She watches her for a moment, waiting her out, noticing just how pathetic she looks, reminding herself that she had been harsh without much cause, realizing that like this, Nico looks so small and, well, fragile, even though she knows she's far removed from either.

Akiha sighs, knowing full well that she's falling for it as she inches closer to her, reaches out slowly to run her fingers through Nico's hair, wraps her arm around her waist from behind and pulls Nico up into her lap. "This trick isn't going to work again," she warns, just like the last twenty times.

"But I have been on edge lately. I'll apologize for that."

Nico offers no resistance as she's pulled into her arms -- she falls into place easily, cuddling up to Akiha and nuzzling her face against her neck. "It's not a trick," she pouts, though it's already halfhearted. "Nico's a very sensitive girl."

She presses a kiss to the corner of Akiha's pale jaw. Her voice takes on a note of sincere concern when she asks, "Is something up?"

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"Nothing that isn't usually up," Akiha mutters, contradicting herself with how freely she nuzzles back. Usually it takes her a moment to get into the cuddling.

"My brother still spends his time with ne'er do wells, business is... I won't bore you with the details, but it's going fine. I'm just... worn out," Akiha mutters that too, resting her head on Nico's shoulder, sounding frustrated, a little confused. She's worn out, but she can't find any reason for it. Nothing's changed.

"Maybe taking my mind off it would help."

Nico rubs soothing circles against Akiha's back as she listens, pressing more soft, scattered kisses along her jawline. It doesn't sound like anything happened; that's good. If it's just the sort of frustration that piles up at little everyday inconveniences, Nico's more than happy to assist.

She lets out an exaggerated hum of contemplation, as if mulling over the situation with great intensity, before tilting her head up to kiss the edge of Akiha's mouth.

"So even though Akiha acts so tough, all you want is to not have to think about anything, hmm?" Nico's tongue darts out, running across the length of the other girl's lower lip. Then she takes it between her teeth, tugging teasingly light.

"Mm," is Akiha's first response to being kissed, a pleasant little hum in the back of her throat as she leans down to kiss back. All she needs to respond to her question is another "mm,' letting her eyes drift shut as Nico teases at her lower lip.

Not thinking about anything is very nice, she can say that much. Akiha's got a mind that moves a mile a minute, and most of the things it comes up with are negative. It's just how she works. It's nice to just relax for a moment, let herself be led and seduced.

Wait.

She breaks away from the half-kiss, pulling her lower lip free and frowning down at Nico. "You know, if you had been like this ten minutes ago, we would have saved time."

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Nico frowns right back. Does she have to always be like this? Just when they got a nice mood going...

No, no. If she lets herself get worked up over this again, they're never going to get anywhere. Time to rise above it. Stay in control.

"Akiha," she tuts, her previously flustered scowl having shifted into something subtler, more restrained. Chiding, almost. "Complaining means you're thinking." Planting both palms firm against Akiha's shoulders, Nico shifts her weight forward, until she's pushed her down onto her back on the mattress.

"Not allowed."

"I wasn't thinking," Akiha protests huffily. She's not used to Nico being the one doing the chiding, and her immediate reaction is dislike. She's not a child. Her shoulders tense up as Nico pushes her down, and she catches herself on her hands, keeping her from being pressed completely flat against the mattress.

"I just... thou..." She cuts herself off, then trails into an indistinct mumble before just sighing and giving up, lifting her hands and falling onto her back herself, brushing her hair out of the way to prevent it from getting caught between her and the bed. The last thing she wants is to damage it.

"Fine, you win," Akiha sighs. "But there's no way I can stop thinking completely."

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"I'll take that as a challenge, then," Nico says with a little giggle, and leans down to kiss Akiha properly on the mouth. Long and deep, tongue seeking hers, breaths melting together. She's smiling as they break away -- downright cherubic in the most unnerving of ways -- and her fingers begin to toy with the top button of Akiha's blouse.

"Just do everything Nico says and it'll be juuust fine, okay?"

"But... mm," Akiha's cut off by the kiss, but even if she hadn't been she doubts she could have come up with anything smart to say. She kisses back, not incredibly eager, but eager by her standards, tongue pressing against Nico's for a second before letting Nico lead the kiss, and when they break away Nico's smile is as cute as it is unnerving.

"Alright," she breathes.

She watches Nico toy with the button for a second, and then looks her in the eyes, a little pout forming on her face. "But no teasing."

She's complaining again.

Akiha's face looks so cute with her lip sticking out like that, Nico almost doesn't mind the complaint. Almost. She leans back down, this time to kiss the spot beneath her ear. Her voice has an air of incredulousness to it, clearly exaggerated tenfold just to tease. "What, you're still ordering me around? You're really not getting the hang of it, are you..."

All the same, Nico's fingers skillfully pop open the first button, before setting about their slow descent downwards. She keeps her mouth busy by kissing and nipping at her ear, teeth tugging lightly on the lobe. There's a distinct lack of urgency behind her movements -- as if she has all the time in the world.

Akiha can tell her not to tease all she wants; the one to decide that is Nico.

"Okay," she concludes by the time she reaches the third button, and breaks away from Akiha's ear to look down at her. "Since you're struggling, I'll help you practice. First of all, say 'Nico-nii is the cutest in the universe, I love you' three times."

Her face is one hundred percent serious.

Akiha isn't the type to pout much. The fact that the expression not only sticks around, but deepens, her lower lip pushed out and her eyes lowered, makes it clear that Nico's teasing is getting to her. She grumbles wordlessly as Nico slowly undoes the buttons, taking deep breaths through her nose to keep from interrupting herself.

Nico's teeth against her ear felt good, after all, even if the pace was about a hundred times slower than she'd like. With every button, Akiha's heart races faster and faster, the anticipation building. Akiha's grumbling fades away into shallow, uneven breathing, until Nico finally pulls away from her ear and looks down at her. Akiha looks up at her, lovingly.

At least until she ruins the mood by talking. Akiha blinks up at her and then narrows her eyes, the moment completely lost. "Not on your life, Yazawa."

That's her way of letting Nico know she's in a bad mood now.

"Come on!" Nico huffs, eyes narrowing right back. "If you can't even do this much, how are we going to get anywhere?"

"There's a difference between asking me to say that and asking me to..." Akiha's griping dies down into nothing as she realizes that, if anything, she's thinking more than usual.

What is she trying to prove here? Nico isn't liable to run off and tell anyone about this. Why is she trying to keep her pride even when it doesn't matter?

Akiha sighs, reaching her hand up and placing it on Nico's shoulder, grumpy expression dying down into an extremely awkward sweetness. She can't quite meet Nico's eyes, but she's smiling. Sort of.

"... I love you, and you're very cute," she says it as loud as she can manage, which is still just a whisper. She doesn't toss the word 'love' around much, if ever.

"That's all you're getting out of me." She looks up at Nico, embarrassed in a way that isn't just cute. She seems skittish, like half of her wants to slip out from under Nico and call it off. "I mean it."

Nico stares down at her, mouth slightly ajar. A faint pink blush rises up to her cheeks.

"Woah, you actually said it," she blurts in her shock, and then quickly closes her mouth when she realizes it's probably going to embarrass Akiha more. Crap. Clearing her throat, she tries again. "Uh, I mean--"

Her features rearrange themselves into a more controlled expression, her smile one of calm, moderate approval. Or that's what she's aiming for, but Nico can't quite help the fondness that gives her lips an extra quirk. "... That much will do. Akiha's a good girl, after all."

She leans down to reward her with a kiss, and murmurs softly against her lips: "Love you too."

Akiha doesn't feel like a good girl at the moment. To be blunt, she feels like an idiot. Something about expressing her affections out loud makes them seem silly to her, even childish. Her feelings for Nico are a lot more complex than just the word 'love' can get across.

But she's doing that thinking thing again. She takes a deep breath, shoulders visibly relaxing as she returns the kiss, and when she pulls away her smile doesn't need any qualifiers. She just looks happy. It's a look Nico hasn't seen much of before. Even when Akiha does look this happy, it's usually when they're both half-asleep.

"Could you say that again?" She asks, excited but a little nervous, realizing how silly and, again, childish she sounds halfway through, but pressing on anyway. Since she never says she loves Nico, there's not much need for Nico to return the gesture.

She doesn't necessarily like saying it, but she loves hearing it.

Nico's heart promptly leaps into her throat. Somehow, Akiha asking to hear it again has just as much of an impact on her as having her say it -- maybe even more so. It must be the look on her face, that unguarded, eager smile, a sight Nico's witnessed about as often as a solar eclipse. Aauuugh, she's too cute--

In that moment, keeping composed becomes the last thing on Nico's mind -- she grabs Akiha by both shoulders and throws herself at her with such intensity that it sends them rolling over the bed, the movement ending with Nico on top again. She presses her lips to hers, firmly, but with almost childlike affection rather than any real passion, and then proceeds to speckle her whole face with a shower of little kisses. It's a good half minute before she's satisfied, and she marks the end of the kiss avalanche by squeezing Akiha tightly and pressing their cheeks together. "I love you lots and lots and lots!"

"Ni, Nico!" Akiha stammers as Nico suddenly tackles her, squirming beneath the shorter girl as they kiss and roll. Mostly rolling. Her head's spinning slightly as they finally stop, and Nico's still kissing, not in a romantic way but in a cute way.

As adorable - and Nico's never going to hear her use that word - as it is, Akiha reaches up as Nico presses their cheeks together, pushing her away. Not harshly, but still rejecting the ridiculously saccharine affection. "Nico. This is supposed to be seduction," Akiha chides, not as harsh as she'd usually be but still put off, confused by how suddenly Nico switched gears. If you ask her, what they had going earlier was basically ideal - too much sweetness makes her think it's forced.

"And I'm not twelve. You don't need to condescend. I was being sincere, you know."

"Nico was being sincere too! I just couldn't hold back." Nico pouts, cheeks puffing beneath Akiha's palm. Well, this reaction was only to be expected -- but she still wishes Akiha could've just accepted it this once. Spoilsport. "If you're going to be that cute, you'll have to be prepared for the consequences," she scolds back.

But the next moment Nico sighs, and her shoulders slouch as if the fight's been drained out of her. They could go back and forth like this forever; in the end, Akiha's the type of person who'd only take her words at face value if they're uttered in complete seriousness. Anything less, and she'll think it's a joke.

So she's going to make herself perfectly clear.

Nico shifts on top of her, until her thighs are straddling Akiha's waist. Then, she spends a moment just looking down at her, humor gone from her features, lashes hanging low over her eyes.

She leans down, and her hand presses flat against the center of her collarbone, before trailing a steady path across the strip of skin exposed by the opened three buttons. It comes to rest right between Akiha's breasts, over the material of her bra.

Her voice is lower when she speaks again -- Nico's real voice, when she isn't acting cute or playing around. Maybe even a little lower than that.

"But, really... when Akiha said that, I was so happy I thought my heart was going to burst." She locks her intent gaze onto Akiha's as she touches their foreheads together, the eye contact made from far too close to be comfortable. "Do you think I'm not serious?"

Akiha likes her best like this, she thinks. Nico's... Nico is cute, at times, but it usually rings a little hollow. Then again, Akiha tends to doubt everything, no matter who it comes from or how it's delivered. Only a few people have her complete trust.

Somehow, Nico's become one of them. Akiha bites her lip as Nico moves, wanting to break the incredibly close eye contact. Wanting, but not doing. It's way too intense. Akiha feels like she's frozen.

Even after Nico's done talking, Akiha just stares at her. Slowly, she shakes her head, reaching out to stroke Nico's hair. "I'm sorry," Akiha says, in not much more than a whisper. They're so close that Nico can hear it anyway.

"I know you're serious, I just..." Akiha realizes halfway through that she shouldn't be making excuses.

"Displays of affection are still new. Especially things like that." She only has her relationship with her brother to compare it to, even if it wasn't the same type of love. And as much as she cares about him, she was five years old the last time she told him she loved him. Their relationship is quiet, except when she's scolding him. The moments she remembers most fondly are the moments of mutual, comfortable silence, understanding each other without saying a word.

Definitely not Nico. For one thing, she hasn't known Nico her entire life. There are things Nico has no way of knowing without being told, even with as close as they've gotten.

She nuzzles her cheek against Nico's, slowly, like she's not sure if she's doing it right. "Give me some time to get used to it."

Slowly, she pulls a few inches away from Nico, looking her deep in the eyes once more. "I love you, very much." It's probably the first time Akiha's said that without prompting, without Nico outright telling her to. "Frankly, I'm terrible at showing it, but I do."

Nico laughs a little under her breath -- not mocking, but fond. "I know," she says, and presses a kiss to the corner of Akiha's lips.

She undoes one button more and slips her hand underneath, until her fingertips can worm their way up into the inside of her bra. "You act all tough, but you're actually pretty shy, aren't you?"

Nico tilts her head by an inch to kiss her full on the mouth, as her fingers begin to rub against the bare skin of Akiha's breast -- just slowly, for now, but firm.

"But that's okay. I like that about Akiha, too."

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"I am not shy," Akiha pouts, saying the word like it's a curse, or some grave insult - and whatever she's about to follow that up with is cut off as Nico kisses her. It catches in her throat, coming out as a gasp into the kiss.

She definitely isn't gasping because of Nico's fingers on her breast. That would be absurd. "I am... reserved." That was a much better word. "I don't show my feelings just for the sake of it." They beat their heads against that wall plenty, when they'd first met. Even once they got past the initial hump and began to view each other as friends, things were awkward for a long while. Akiha had been to Nico's home about a dozen times before Nico was finally allowed into Akiha's.

"I hope you appreciate that, Nico. You're one of the few people I'm willing to be open with."

(OOC: Hey! You don't have to reply if you've lost interest, but as it happens I'm also the MakoHaru anon. I felt bad starting a new thread with you and leaving this one dropped, and rereading the thread made me want to tag it, so, here you go.)

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